WAITING IS DIFFICULT

Just cannot believe that waiting on the ultrasound day (10/28/09) is the most difficult thing I have done so far.  I started spotting a little bit about 4 days ago.  Just the smallest amount of brown when i wipe.  Of course I know that is normal and nothing to worry about.  But in all honesty I just don't want it to be there! Just gives me one more thing to worry about.  I am just a worry wort.  I felt a little sick to my stomach this morning but nothing major.  The biggest thing is that I am EXTREMELY TIRED.  I have never been this tired.  On Saturday afternoon I restarted a program i had on the DVR eight times.  I could not keep my eyes open.  This has never happened to me before.  

I developed an allergy to the vivelle patches and my RE put me on estrace pills.  I asked if there was any difference in the effectiveness and I was told NONE.  Let's see Vivelle cost = $450.00 per month vs. $4 per month for the pills.  I am so mad.  I just hope he is getting a good dinner or some co-op advertising for writing so many vivelle scripts.  That is just BAD patient care and the lack of compassion for how much many we have to pay.  Of course, I said nothing because I believe in karma and am trying to keep my anger side in check.  I can have a short temper.  I do stick up for myself.  But I know when to pick my battles and at this point what would I have to gain?

The more IVF's you do the more you learn each time.  Well, it is Monday and I am so tired.  Just want to go home and watch Gossip Girl and chill.